If It All Ends

This year has begun. 2012.
We started the year off at Lake Tahoe, sledding, walking, relaxing, dancing.
I can feel the change in the air. We have been discussing the End of The World scenarios with many friends. For the most part, a general consensus holds that it may not be such a bad thing if the "world as we know it" did, in fact, "end" this year. From various readings and schools of thought, perhaps just an end to the way we now view it, the beginning of a new, higher consciousness... whatever that is. We may all have our views of what consciousness means, of who is more conscious than others, of who has more answers, or knows the "truth" about any particular subject in this wide, yet so very small world. All I know is that I know nothing... did Socrates say that? I just think a lot of stuff. I think that the world could end any day. The world does end, every second for someone. The only certainties I suppose, that don't require some kind of faith are~ We're born, we live, we die. I do have faith in many things, but in things I cannot explain, cannot prove, cannot fathom at some points.

In the last year I've mentally compiled this list and have taken it upon myself to:
1. ALWAYS EXPECT THAT ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN.
2. NEVER BE SHOCKED BY ANY EVENT, OR ANY ACTION OF ANY PERSON OR GROUP OF PEOPLE.
3. KNOW THAT AS MUCH AS WE DISCOVER, WE MAY ALWAYS BE INTRODUCED TO SOMETHING NEW AND PERHAPS MORE REAL OR TRUE (whether a scientific advancement, new planet, galaxy, universe, being, spirituality, etc.)

Since I was young until now, I've had all these EPIC dreams of the world ending, armageddon, raptures, various deities making appearances, voices of gods, etc... THEY WERE NUTS. I'd wake up sweating, shaking, crying, praying, writing it down, calling friends, waking my husband, telling him the story before I forgot it.

Years ago, a band-mate of mine said "What's the worst thing that could happen...the end of the world...well the end of our lives are the end of our world, as far as we know, and when I think of it that way, it doesn't seem so scary."

If it all ends, well it ends. But for now, it is running, not smoothly, but running, cogs ,gears, twists and jolts, surprises round every bend, and new beginnings after each end. Perhaps every ending brings a new beginning, perhaps each "world" is meant to end and begin infinity times over, perhaps it already has... I haven't met a dinosaur lately, but I've heard they were here. I don't see "T-REX WAS HERE" carved on mountain-sides but hey, ya never know.